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To my daughter, on your first day of life.
Dear Caroline, It’s February 12, 2018 and you are going to be born today. This is absolutely mindblowing because (a) I was starting to think I was going to be pregnant forever, and (b) somebody is...
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Returning to riding slightly (five weeks) ahead of schedule
A surgeon sliced into my abdomen ten days ago and pulled out the person that had been growing in there for nine months. “Rest for six weeks,” they told me. “You can walk – walking is good!” But walking...
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That one time when you were born
It’s been just over two weeks since you showed up and I’m not sure if that’s an eternity or an instant. In a way it feels like there was never a world without you, while on the other hand, sometimes...
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Hey kids, drugs are good
Ten weeks postpartum. The baby is a smiley, happy child (except when she is tired or hungry, and then holy hell), we sleep for periods long enough to justify actually turning off the lights and...
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Any occasion is an excuse for cake
Dear Caroline, Happy 6 months! This is not a real birthday, but we are celebrating anyway. I went to the store yesterday and bought you a flower, a new toy, some baby food, and a bunch of outfits, and...
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On the occasion of your first birthday
Dear Caroline, A year ago today, we had our first moment together. I heard your crying and the sound – a sudden surreal mewling, like somebody was powerwashing a small, furious cat – brought me...
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Everything you (n)ever wanted to know about pregnancy, childbirth, and...
I’m 13 months postpartum after giving birth to a healthy baby girl in February 2018. It’s been a long ride from the time I found out I was pregnant, in June 2017, until now, when my kid can pick up and...
View ArticleSupermint, Class of 2019
After four great years and facing the challenging of finding a new title sponsor, I decided instead to end the program on a high note. I sent the following message to the team on July 1: Team, This is...
View ArticlePerspectives. Written for ProCycling Mag.
“You must be so sad about the team ending,” said yet another person, adding to the heap of sympathetic responses that’s been growing for months. Lying feels disingenuous, but I suspect nobody wants to...
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Till Death (Or the KOM) Do Us Part
Love is a beautiful thing. So is cycling. But what happens when you try to mix the two – even more beauty? Well, not exactly. My first recollection of riding with Josh was on a hard group ride; the...
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